I've learned close my emotions and feelings up. I've learned to not be close to many people. I realized how sad depressing it can be sometimes. I honestly don't trust anyone. Because almost everyone I've known has disappointed me somehow. But I need to start learning to forgive and forget. Or at least forgive. Everybodys human. Just because some people were shady to me in the past doesn't give me a right to treat everyone else the same way. Once something bad happens I keep connecting it to the past. Something I need not to do. Maybe I can change this? Idk. We'll seee.